Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas Caroline!

My Dearest Caroline,

Merry Christmas my little angel. I pray that you are having fun and enjoying your day. Today is Christmas, it is the day of our Savior's birth. If you were home right now, we would be reading Luke 2 in the Bible. We would have already opened all of your presents from Mommy and Daddy. We would have already played with all the goodies that Santa brought you. I'm sure Peaches, Peanut, and Coco would be making a huge mess with all the wrapping paper! We would be getting ready to go to Aunt Christi's house to spend the rest of the day with Aunt Christi, Uncle Stan, Savannah, Nana, and Pepaw. I'm sure you would look stunning in your beautiful Christmas dress. As soon as we get there, we would look at all of Savannah's presents and then would nestle by the fire as we get prepared to eat our Christmas feast. Nana sure worked hard to make all of our favorite dishes. I wonder what will be yours. Will it be mashed potatoes? Or will it be cornbread dressing? I can't wait to see what you decide!

My sweet angel, unfortunately, we are not together today. I want you to know that we love you so much! Our hearts ache for you and we desperately want you home with us. You are so very loved. Today, you will wake up and get a nice warm bottle and bananas for breakfast. I'm sure your foster mom and dad are preparing a special meal for tonight. I'm almost postive that you will get to taste it! As you get ready to go to sleep tonight, please dream of your daddy and me. We will be dreamimg of you and our Christmas next year. Next year, we will have an amazing Christmas together. I'm so sorry that I was not able to call you today to wish you a Merry Christmas and to tell you how much I love you. I tried, but the phone lines weren't working. My sweet baby, I'm telling you now...I love you and your daddy loves you. You are the most special gift and promise that God has given us. Please remember our voices and hugs. We will be together soon. We have so many people bombarding Heaven's gates with prayers for you. Hold on tight, Mommy and Daddy will be there soon.

We love you, Caroline!

Mommy and Daddy

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Perhaps a glimmer of HOPE???

For those of you who know, our agency told Tim that we were kicked out of PGN last weekish. I really don't know what to believe anymore. Anyway, our agency emailed Tim last night and told him that our case is back in PGN and our case is moving along quite well. Quite well??? Well was bringing Caroline home by Thanksgiving or at the latest by Christmas.

I've had to totally step out of the race and now God is running it for me. For those of you who know me, I am stubborn and very strong willed. Unfortunately, I didn't let God take over the chaos for me and I kept getting involved by helping Him out. I describe it as a basketball game. I'm out of breath and there's still plenty of time left in the quarter. God is sitting on the bench and I'm about to pass out as I run up and down the court. I keep looking over at God and telling him that I can make it a little bit longer, just sit tight and I'll let Him know when I need to sit down. I'm finally out of breath and I let God in the game.

My glimmer of HOPE comes from all of you guys praying for my family. You guys are bombarding Heaven's gates and God is hearing all of your prayers. I just can't thank each and every one of you enough. My heart is at peace and I know that she is coming home. Caroline IS coming home. God promised her to us and He will not take her away.

My students at school just never cease to amaze me! They are such little prayer warriors! Before we left for Christmas, we did an "open" prayer time and they each prayed for Caroline. My heart was so FULL! There is truly nothing sweeter than a child's prayer. THANK YOU!

Again, thank you and we wish each and every one of you a very, Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

total breaking point is here

You know how you reach your breaking point???? Here it is...you want to literally pull your hair out, scream at the top of your lungs, throw your most expensive crystal against the wall... I am here. It is official, it is breaking point. It has now been 71 days without any news. I decided to call PGN one more time to verify our case. Our case is NO WHERE to be found! This is now the third time I have heard the same thing. The lady tried to look up our file with Caroline's full birth name, half name, mother's name, mother's half name, date of birth, misspellings, mother's date of birth, date we went "into PGN", and NOTHING!!! NADA, ZIP, ZILCH! Each time I talk with our "not so tenacious" facilitator, he says "call me back in 45 minutes, call me back tomorrow". Well, 45 minutes is UP, tomorrow has already past (many times)! I'M FED UP!!!!

Sunday, December 9, 2007

A Perfect Outfit for the Perfect Song

No News just Pics!

Daddy and I are reading our favorite book Guess How Much I Love You!

May I have some aqua por favor?

Caroline? How do I get fat cheeks like yours?

Pretty as a Picture!

I know...I'm adorable!!!