Sunday, February 24, 2008
What do you do??
Do you ever feel a sense of helplessness with your children? I think it's worse when you are adopting from a foreign country. Caroline is still sick and has yet to have a normal bowel movement. She has a horrible chest cold/congestion that is not getting better. After going to the doctor once, I think we are going to have to go back to get more medicine and a suppository of some sort. Her stomach is very bloated and she is now spitting up her food, which she has not done this week. I guess it has to come out one end?? My heart is breaking because I feel that in the pit of my stomach something bad will happen if I leave. I have extended my visit to make sure that I can get her healthy before I give her back to the foster mom. After all, the foster mom is the one who took her to the bad doctor and he gave her bad medicine. I am also very worried about our passport picture. We supposedly got our birth certificate on Friday and we should be able to get our passport done on Monday. However, I am now being told that it will take at least another week to do a simple process. EVERYONE says that it can be done the next day and I am not sure why ours can't be processed. What's the hold up? What's wrong with my case? Why is it being stalled? WHY? WHY? WHY? I wish that I had the answers, but of course, I don't. My mother instinct has kicked in and I feel very torn about what to do. I feel that if I leave, nothing will get done or it will take another two months to do what should be done in a week. Also, if I leave, I have concerns about Caroline's health. I can't stay because of the money factor (BIG one!!!) and responsibilities at home. My heart is torn because I know that there is not a right answer. Please pray for peace and for Tim and I to do the right thing.